[ That's too selfish... But coming from a tyrant King, Setsuna is already anticipating this to happen. It's hypocritical and greedy. Gilgamesh, who very clearly stated to his face before... Said that he couldn't find happiness either, just like him. He who is doomed to eternally fight, just like him. They hold way too many similarities that it only strengthens the fact that this is selfish. His eyes glisten, but not because of the usual sparkle within them. No, they light up because of held back tears.
Setsuna already promised to stay with him. He'll stay with him, as a comrade. That goes without question. But to go beyond that... To acknowledge anything beyond that, to the depths of what they call love... That's something that he will never step onto nor is he capable of it anyway. Why does this have to be so complicated? It hurts. This is the kind of pain that he never wanted to feel again. Although, he knows he couldn't talk... He is fully aware that he himself said something selfish to the King before.
He told him to find happiness. Even while fully aware that the King might never be able to ever again, just like him. But it's too easy to say selfish things to others. It's harder to be selfless. It's always been that way, even if others don't acknowledge that fact. That's why, knowing his own hypocrisy, the young Meister doesn't really push the King away despite his own words. He stays still, even as the tight hold on his cheeks is beginning to hurt. That's because something else hurts much worse. ]
Why? Even though you understand me, you still...
[ Even though Gilgamesh can fully relate to it... ]
Humiliate you? It has nothing to do with that! If I do not love anybody, then no one will be hurt!
[ And so, for the first time in front of this person... In front of anyone, really. Setsuna raises his voice for the first time, and admitted something that he never thought he'd ever say. Though even in such a situation, he measures his words. Rather than say, I will not be hurt, he specifically said no one.
There has always been deep reasons of why Setsuna can't freely smile like others. To attempt ignoring that fact will be failing to love him altogether. ]
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[ That's too selfish... But coming from a tyrant King, Setsuna is already anticipating this to happen. It's hypocritical and greedy. Gilgamesh, who very clearly stated to his face before... Said that he couldn't find happiness either, just like him. He who is doomed to eternally fight, just like him. They hold way too many similarities that it only strengthens the fact that this is selfish. His eyes glisten, but not because of the usual sparkle within them. No, they light up because of held back tears.
Setsuna already promised to stay with him. He'll stay with him, as a comrade. That goes without question. But to go beyond that... To acknowledge anything beyond that, to the depths of what they call love... That's something that he will never step onto nor is he capable of it anyway. Why does this have to be so complicated? It hurts. This is the kind of pain that he never wanted to feel again. Although, he knows he couldn't talk... He is fully aware that he himself said something selfish to the King before.
He told him to find happiness. Even while fully aware that the King might never be able to ever again, just like him. But it's too easy to say selfish things to others. It's harder to be selfless. It's always been that way, even if others don't acknowledge that fact. That's why, knowing his own hypocrisy, the young Meister doesn't really push the King away despite his own words. He stays still, even as the tight hold on his cheeks is beginning to hurt. That's because something else hurts much worse. ]
Why? Even though you understand me, you still...
[ Even though Gilgamesh can fully relate to it... ]
Humiliate you? It has nothing to do with that! If I do not love anybody, then no one will be hurt!
[ And so, for the first time in front of this person... In front of anyone, really. Setsuna raises his voice for the first time, and admitted something that he never thought he'd ever say. Though even in such a situation, he measures his words. Rather than say, I will not be hurt, he specifically said no one.
There has always been deep reasons of why Setsuna can't freely smile like others. To attempt ignoring that fact will be failing to love him altogether. ]