Caren Ortensia (Hortensia) (
showsnopiety) wrote in
pawnstorm2016-05-20 09:54 pm
![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
![[community profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/community.png)
Entry tags:
- adrasteius anor'thalion (warcraft),
- aisha clanclan (outlaw star),
- akito/agito wanijima (air gear),
- allen walker (d.grayman),
- artoria pendragon (fate/),
- asuna yuuki (sword art online),
- bolin (legend of korra),
- caren ortensia (fate/),
- ema skye (ace attorney),
- gilbert nightray (pandora hearts),
- gilgamesh (fate/),
- hajime hinata (dangan ronpa 2),
- jae-ha (akatsuki no yona),
- kaede (elfen lied),
- kaito kuroba (dcmk),
- kasen kanesada (touken ranbu),
- kija (akatsuki no yona),
- levi (attack on titan),
- minato arisato (persona),
- misaki yata (k),
- naruto uzumaki (naruto),
- nobunaga oda (fate/),
- nora (nora),
- potemkin (guilty gear),
- rory connor (original character),
- sakura (fire emblem: fates),
- sakura haruno (naruto),
- sasuke uchiha (naruto),
- setsuna f. seiei (mobile suit gundam 00),
- shunsui kyouraku (bleach),
- sion astal (lolheroes),
- souji seta (persona)
[Open] It's getting hot in here
Who: Caren and anyone visiting the hot springs!
When: Post dungeon, could be right after fail/success, could be days after
Where: Hot Springs of course
What: There's a hot springs, so now there's a hot springs episode.
Rating: Could be a p-13 and beyond because some people are only wearing towels in this place.

[Win or fail, everyone needed a reason and a way to relax. With the fall of the towers, there was all sorts of good things to come from it. Some would say it was the birds; and others would say it was the hot springs.
The large, large pools of heated water. Sure, they could be used as a way to get all steamed up (or even steam punk) but after all that hard work, everyone deserves a break!
Bring your swimsuits, your towels, your drinks and snacks-who knows, you should be able to find them in the bazaars, or even on Airy. It's time to soak in the heat!]
When: Post dungeon, could be right after fail/success, could be days after
Where: Hot Springs of course
What: There's a hot springs, so now there's a hot springs episode.
Rating: Could be a p-13 and beyond because some people are only wearing towels in this place.

[Win or fail, everyone needed a reason and a way to relax. With the fall of the towers, there was all sorts of good things to come from it. Some would say it was the birds; and others would say it was the hot springs.
The large, large pools of heated water. Sure, they could be used as a way to get all steamed up (or even steam punk) but after all that hard work, everyone deserves a break!
Bring your swimsuits, your towels, your drinks and snacks-who knows, you should be able to find them in the bazaars, or even on Airy. It's time to soak in the heat!]
no subject
[ He gasps, squeezing his eyes shut. Couldn't hold it back that time. ]
You can't just grab my ear every time you want the advantage, Gil--
[ Hardly sporting. ]
no subject
Shall I let go? If you find it so unpleasant, perhaps it would be for the best...
no subject
Yes, let go--oh.
[ THE WORST ]
no subject
You needn't be ashamed of it, Adrasteius. It's part of your body, and deriving pleasure from it... it's all but natural.
[His eyes hood, purposely.]
Shall I teach you? It is part of your face, as we agreed.
no subject
I'm not ....--
[ No. He is ashamed. Ashamed to waste time like this, to indulge like this. He doesn't mind frivolity in others; he's happy to facilitate it at Heaven's Feel, even. Happy to see other people enjoying themselves, and each other. ]
This sort of thing. It's just not for me. That's all.
no subject
[Because as Gilgamesh had come to understand, with Adra, those were two very different distinctions. Distinctions that needed to be drawn.]
no subject
[ His ears flick back, but they don't fall flat; it's simply an indication of (somewhat aggrieved) thought. ]
Deserve isn't quite the right word. It's just--not what I'm meant to be doing. It's not useful.
no subject
[And shockingly, it's not said just because he's interested in an easy lay, as he elaborates.]
It is the closest connection we stand to share as people. It is warmth and love and affection; it is reassurance and stability; it is a light in the dark, when nothing else shines. I am surprised, Adrasteius, that one of your nature would scorn it. It is practically your calling.
[Or at least he assumed as much, as a priest. As gently as he can, with tenderness nearly unsuited to a self-proclaimed tyrant, he rests a hand on Adra's cheek, as had been done to him. He strokes where he can feel bone, beneath the shape of an eye, through his hair and under his chin, and very, very faintly over the shell of an ear.]
Intimacy is not anything to shy away from, little sun. I am surprised, but I also am saddened you would not want it for yourself.
cw abuse
He mutters, covering Gilgamesh's hand with his own. He shudders, even from the ghost of sensation against his ear. ]
Truthfully, Gil ... I agree with you. We connect through this contact, skin to skin. But we cause so much suffering that way, too.
[ How many times had someone (a particular someone) taken his hand, only to crush his fingers? How many times had a seeming embrace turned to punishment, to Adra bleeding on the floor? How is he meant to trust that it won't happen again? That he's safe?
More than anything, he wants to relinquish control. To be held, firmly, in the hands of another person. It's a terrifying, thrilling thought. But so much holds him back, beyond his notions of work ethic, beyond his disappointments in past relationships. So many silent, still years of fractured bones and bloodied knuckles. Things he's never spoken of to anyone, nor imagines that he ever would. ]
no subject
You fear that I would hurt you, as you have been hurt before.
no subject
[ That's his thought process, whenever he's touched unexpectedly. Don't hurt me. Please, please, don't hurt me. ]
no subject
Then I imagine you are afraid all the time.
[And that was truly a pitiful thing. What can he even say to that, that wouldn't be outright disparaging? Gilgamesh simply couldn't wrap his mind around the idea. But he does try. He tries to soften himself just enough, as Adra and Setsuna and many others had taught him to do.
Maybe mercy was good for something after all.]
You cannot live your life in fear. Yes, there are those who will hurt you; yes, there are those who will do you wrong. But to assume it of everyone, to flinch away and expect the worst on every occasion... I am a tyrant, a most terrible sort, yet when have I ever raised my hand against you?
[That's not to say he wouldn't. Even Gilgamesh admitted that he very well might. But.]
Live for yourself, Adrasteius. Do what you want. Feel what you want. Let no one take it from you, and let no one deny you your right to pleasure.
no subject
I do not live my life in fear. I live it despite fear. You've been beside me enough--have you found me cowardly, reticent?
[ He lifts a hand, shakes his head. No. Gilgamesh can think whatever he wants. ]
That's not the point. The way I react to an unexpected advance--it's like kicking your leg when you're struck on the knee. It's automatic. I don't enjoy it.
[ The water, hot as it is, seems to be getting hotter. ]
And if I'm with someone enough, if I trust them, it does fade.
[ As Gil himself has likely experienced. ]
But in the meantime, I live with it. I go forward. I fight.
[ It is true: the fear is always with him.
But so is the fire. ]
no subject
[His eyes flicker away. Not in submission, but in something like sympathy, or as close to as Gilgamesh could ever manage.]
To somehow believe yourself unworthy of what others enjoy... what else could I think, looking upon you now?
no subject
He swallows thickly, frustrated. ]
Not unworthy -- I just need someone --
[ He shuts his eyes. Exhales slowly. The energy drains from his voice. ]
Never mind. It doesn't matter. You're free to think whatever you want.
no subject
I said I found you unfortunate, not unseemly. You assume so much; you assume I would throw you away, or disregard you, because you spoke to displease me. That I would lose interest, that I would bring you to harm, as all others have. That I might leave you, as all others did.
[All very real possibilities. But Gilgamesh pushes past them, and, is his way, makes his own sort of truth instead. Reshapes the board as he sees fit.]
If you need someone, then let it be me. Let me show you how good it can be, and you will want for nothing else.
no subject
He takes hold of Gil's wrists, his grip light, but firm, warm. Always feverishly warm.
What should he do? What should he say?
He doesn't answer immediately. He just sits there, in the water, breathing softly. He likes this moment; this closeness. This contact.
Finally: ]
All right. All right, Gil. We can try.
no subject
[He reasserts that, strongly. But he melts into a faint smile just moments after.]
When you are home, and when you are rested, and when you are ready.
no subject
Was that wise? There's no way to tell, but--even if it wasn't--Adra knows himself. Knows he's never let wisdom stop him before.
So it goes.
He kisses the inside of Gil's wrist. Brief and hot, and then he lets go. ]
Thank you.
no subject
For now, Gilgamesh sinks into the water, rests his head on Adra's shoulder, and shuts his eyes.]
I have no use for gratitude.
[But he can have use for a promise to stay.]
no subject
'Til then, he runs his fingers through Gil's hair. ]
Hmm. Then I'll just reiterate what I said before: I won't give up.
[ Because that will always be true, too. ]