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Penny Rose [ Serah Farron ] ([personal profile] rememberher) wrote in [community profile] pawnstorm 2016-11-17 10:01 pm (UTC)

[ A kiss. Not one that she expected to give, more out of desperation for being heard than passion. Impassioned to be sure, and far more loving than one she could ever give to him now because it carried in its wake so much that had been eating at her.

Something that finally came to a head.

Allen, she would apologize for being so brazen later, but she must keep her resolve. Even as he faltered, she had to hold firm. And knowing that, Lux took a breath, bringing his left hand up to brush his knuckles against her cheek. Leaning against it not as an anchor for her, but for him. ]


You get angry at me for thinking so little of myself, you've said as much before. [ "Please don't talk like your life means nothing." ] And I realize that getting angry and frustrated that you won't consider yourself at all makes me the biggest hypocrite. I know that; frankly I don't care.

[ Squeezing his hand (the left), Lux let that hand, hers still gripping it, fall. Slowly she leans forward into him, forehead gently, tiredly rested against forehead. Her other hand falling away from his cheek to grip his other, holding it there as her gaze lowered slightly to the bridge of his nose. Looking down through heavy blond lashes, much of the fire had died down, leaving instead just a warm, impassioned ember. ]

And before you try to quiet me again, because I know you'll want to... This isn't about broken promises anymore.

I don't want you to stop being the noble, selfless person that you are, because that is something that I love so much about you. When a lesser person might curse fate for being cruel, when "cursed" to see humanity in something that everyone else hates; or retreat within himself when he is told to be a weapon in what might be a losing war. That, despite all of that, you can love and protect unconditionally even your fiercest enemies. That is something I would never want to change, because it is who you are, Innocence or not; Crown Clown or not.

But how can I be able to protect you when you care so little about yourself, about your own happiness and well-being that you would go so far as to sacrifice everything for someone else without question?

When you won't let me?

When I asked to walk by your side, I'm not sure that you fully understood. Yes, it was because you and I both feel so strongly about protecting everyone that we could, and easing their suffering. But more than that, I want to keep you safe, because you won't do that for yourself. Because when I close my eyes and see all those bright, shining people there, I see you so clearly there that it hurts. You, Allen Walker.

[ Easing her grip on both hands, she didn't break away as much as she shifted slightly. Foreheads no longer rested delicately against each other, she let her head tip to one side, eyes lowered and gazing at something that wasn't there. ]

For someone who seems to understand me so completely, you don't get it at all, do you?

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