[the reluctance is especially honed in a tohsaka. she's proud, strong, smart, and an individual: she shouldn't need to depend on hakuno for anything. and considering gilgamesh is just one of many in a long line of threats... even if he treated her violently, even if she was about to lose her decency, she has to face it like it didn't affect her at all.

her hands drop to her sides. her fingers fist in her skirt, knuckles whitening.]

And let's say I do tell you what he did to me, and you aren't kind to him in return. Say you scold him. Am I supposed to believe he won't come after me and violate me, or beat me up worse than he did before?!